Today is my day off, actually today and tomorrow are my days off and I have SO MUCH TO DO! I have been working tirelessly (for about 25 minutes) folding clothes and sorting clothes from Savannah’s room…then, i decided to check out regis and kelly for a few minutes, boom i am on the computer and now, notta–if i start this now i won’t get up until it is time to pick up the girls and then be pissed off all night that i didn’t do anything.
I seriously want to take pictures of my filthy house to post online. My bathroom is horrible, no bugs crawling around or anything, but the trash (a target bag) is overflowing, there are old coffee cups in one sink and the other sink is full of makeup and face cleaning supplies. there is toothpaste all over the edge of a sink and hair everywhere!!! also, a box of tampons spilling out of the floor on one side of the toilet and potting soil on the other side from when marley the mutt jumped on the back of the toilet to escape from a flea bath—THREE WEEKS AGO! yes, i haven’t cleaned up dirt from my bathroom floor in three weeks. Also, since Kati has encopresis (sever, extreme constipation and difficulty going to the bathroom) so, we keep all of her used panties in a basket in the bathroom for washing on the weekends–that is a five step process to get those suckers clean—but still, i haven’t washed them in two weeks so it is starting to get pretty stinky in there too. the toilet bowl? well, we live out in the coutnry with a well and lots of minerals so there are some serious stains going on in there, but not groce stuff—just mineral stains.
so that is my bathroom. I am a mess, a wreck, a disaster of laziness and being completely overwhelmed and trying my best to stay so busy in the outside world that i don’t have time to see how my inner world is so fucked up. Like why i am 40 pounds overweight, and i have no desire to get naked in front of myself much less man and my daughter just spent a week in jail and my other daughter can’t have friends over because our bathroom is so filthy and because i am scared Savannah will have a screaming cussing fit in front of some 7 year old little girl.
so today i am pissed off at my bathroom. That seems like the appropriate object of contempt right now!
summary: I’m too embarrassed of my filthy house to hire someone to clean it.
